attempt at an almost annual analysis (alliteration!)

I've been planning to return to blogging again, for almost a whole year now - but things came up and well I still have saved Word files of some posts I was going to post but that's for later..

...anyways time for a non-transition!

Hmm various things I have learned this year, and am still learning now:

- God's sovereignty > my imagined ideal situations
- God's plans > my desired plans, for the future and for those ideal situations
- God's wisdom > my perceived wisdom (haha... those random moments afterwards when you're just like.. God, you're so wise, and I was so stupid, so thank you for not letting me go off into my own stupidity)
- God's love and Christ's work on the cross > my (often half-hearted) desire for penance
- God's love for the world > my worldly comfort

Ok well the list can go on and on but basically, God's been showing me again and again that I don't know the whole picture, that I don't even know what is best for me, but He does. I had planned on doing something that I wanted to do recently, but on the day which I thought was a good opportunity to do it, God totally used circumstances to block me and it was obviously His doing - to my frustration and later amusement. Amusement because the next day I had a chance to talk it over in seeking counsel and decided I probably shouldn't do it, and the day after I had the "perfect opportunity" to go through with my original plan but this time conviction stopped me dead in my tracks, which was really cool. I'm being vague on purpose I know. Rats I totally was going to stop typing hecka long sentences too but I guess me + blogging = flowly thoughts hmm... well anyway........ lesson of the moment:

I love how the "good" in Romans 8:28 isn't for me to decide, but is determined completely by an omniscient Heavenly Father who wants to conform me to the image of Christ for His glory, which is what is best for me even when I don't know or think it!

yeauuupp..

yeauup or yeup or yoop or yeahup or hUH??!!11

well... seems like blogspot might be easier to use

this might be an encouragement for me to blog more!

anyhoo... tidying this place up will come after finals are over

i leave you with..

"Now I rejoice in my sufferings for your sake, and in my flesh I am filling up what is lacking in Christ's afflictions for the sake of his body, that is, the church, of which I became a minister according to the stewardship from God that was given to me for your, to make the word of God fully known, the mystery hidden for ages and generations but now revealed to his saints."

Colossians 1:24-26

I wish I had that mindset. Like in Acts 5:41, how the apostles rejoiced that they were worthy to suffer dishonor for the name of Christ. Or Paul in Philippians 1:21, truly believing and understanding that death is gain. Forget death, forget that kind of suffering, I'm not even ready, in my heart, for the loss of the comfort that I have here in California. But all thankfulness belongs to God for beginning to open my eyes, if even a little, to the riches of His glory and to the reason why I am still alive here on this earth...